Very First Post

alright, so this IS my first post. i just thought i would make a blog becasue i had nothing else to do this one night. my name is Emma Hawes. This is my blogg, or post, or whatever. Im sure ill get better, just watch me.

So i go to Widdifield and im going into grade 10. Uno, the whole highschool shizz. But what im really wondering is how many girls in that school have had their heartbroken? i bet, for ever single bitchy, high haired, skinny, dance whore, there a REALLY good storie. Well, i got my first rejection, heart break, and learning experience last night.

So i liked this guy for a long time, ( just for the record, in this i dont drop any names other then my own, but lets call this guy.....the greek god ) so uno, we knew eachother since i was 8, he would be 10. we swam on opposite swim teams, and every swim meet would flirt and stuff. finally, i caught him, last summer. and it was great. although he had a funny smell. and we had some really akward intimate moments ( is it ever perfect?) but it was overall, my first boyfriend, first relationship, first guy to have hot and heavy makeout sessions with. lol. what? im 15. but see, i started to like him to much, and, well broke up with him cuz i got scared. ligitiment reason right?

anywho, so this whole year i liked him, loads. i never saw him, due to diffrent schools and diffrent friend circles, but i had convinced myself i couldnt get over this fellow. by medeor talkking, i found out he hadnt dated anyone that year at all. i thought i had a chance at giving it another go right? wrong, i was blindsited.

so were both in toros this year ( summer acting group ) and we are seeing eachother everyday. old emotions came back, i started to think i had a chance. so i talked to him, told him how i felt, and found out that he didnt wana date anyone until sept. well, he wasnt to clear.

so last night, i go to talk to him, telling him i didnt wana date anyone until sept either. ( dont forget this is all in person.) what i expected was the farthest thing from what he said. he told me he didnt wana date me, and he was waiting for a girl to come at the end of august. who he had, uno, done the dirty with.

BOOF- blindsited.

so, today is my moping day. i do have to see him tnight. but i thought alot about it, and now, i can get over him, its like closure. he was kind of an ass about it, but i can finally move on from the greek god. i mean, YES, its like being FREE. now, i just gotta find something else to put my sights on. maybe ill take up painting? or DJ'ing. yes readers, change is coming in the very near future. i can feel it.